Life in general

Things are crazy around here. Life has been more difficult lately. I think I will have to find a new job by the end of the week. I have to have Fridays off until further notice. Not sure what I'm going to do over the summer, but I have a few weeks to figure it out. Without Mom here, it's just crazy.
Cam got a job. He started last week at Sonic. He loves it! I'm pretty amazed. He's doing very well. He also got his ACT scores back last week. He scored a 31 out of 32. That pretty much guarantees him a full ride just about anywhere he wants to go. One more year of high school and he'll be out on his own. He's looking forward to it. I just hope he decides which school he wants to go to. I think he may go to Eastern with his sister. It may be a comfort thing...At least if he chooses Eastern, I already know what to expect. They also have an awesome Honors program that will completely pay his tuition, dorm and books. We'll just have to do the food. I think that should be do-able.
Amanda re-applied to Eastern for the fall. We should be hearing something soon. She can't wait to get back. Working 40 hours a week with no chance of advancement has really got her moving. I still have to nudge her a bit...
Brendan will be 5 tomorrow. Little turd. He is so crazy. He reminds me of my brother so much. He gets that mischief in his eyes and I just want to cry from missing Brian so much. It would be different I suppose if he didn't look so much like him too.
Kieren looks just like me. She acts like me too. Pretty scary. I just hope that Randy and I can offer her the support I never had. We just have to remain constant and stable. I think that will be all she needs besides our love of course.
So now that the abandonment continues, I suppose I should just get over that too. I hope that the people that have treated me this way get paid back even a fraction. That would be great. I just have to wait for that. I am too good of a person to cause that kind of pain.
And if you are reading this looking for something to start, go away! I'm tired of worrying about what you think. YOU DON'T MATTER TO ME ANYMORE! So take your "happiness" and leave me alone. 'Nuff said.