Another week down

So I was sitting here contemplating whether or not I felt like mowing the lawn and the perfect procrastination was right here waiting for me! Actually, I do have to take some money to Cam for the big celebration today (the band won another championship this weekend) and Kieren forgot her violin for practice after school. I do have a couple of things to do on a timeline.
I suppose I should get my stuff together and formulate a plan. I don't know if I want to work at a freakin' gas station, but it is a job. Since we want to move away next year, I seriously shouldn't worry if it doesn't turn out to be my optimum career choice. I am so conflicted that it is hard to manuever. I fell apart on my poor hubby last night. I go around with a big smile on my face and seem to be fine. Then, BAM! Here comes the emotion. I really want to know what I am good at! I want to find a job that will be fulfilling! Is that wrong?? I guess those that find themselves with those type of jobs know themselves pretty well. That is what my real problem is. I don't really know what I'm good at and what I really love to do. I am having a hard time figuring it all out. It's a sad state of affairs, my friend.
I guess I've got some soul searching to do...meanwhile, I'm gonna go scrub a toilet! Yeah, buddy, that's the ticket!! After all, a clean house is a sign of a cluttered mind!!